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Thursday, 28 May 2026 | 5:11 AM

And after diarrhoea and constipation, comes back pseudo-normal shit.

It is not that I feel good right now, as you can see it’s pretty damn early in the morning, the sun in dawning, and I am … am … I can’t find a way to express this. I am plenty of distress, am stressed, can’t wind down, I need rest but I can’t find peace. And this is just not enough to express how I feel.

I also drank perhaps-too-much wine, but it’s not what actually matters. Problem is my mind is overwhelmed, and my body feels it too. This is why my bowels health is being so poor lately.

A pause from alcohol will be a start, for sure, but then I need to put my life in order.

It is difficult, it is complicated, but it will bring, inevitably, SHIT

Tuesday, 26 May 2026 | 7:58 AM

I don’t think I’m going to take any kind of shit today. Yesterday’s diarrhoea emptied me completely. Not just from shit, it deprived me from my soul.

Hopingly I’m going to feel better later today

Monday, 25 May 2026 | 10:27 PM

Am peeing from my arsehole. It’s been five hours at least. I also vomited one hour ago. At first it felt better, for some minutes… then it reprised.

No more vomit, but a lot of shit.

Shit… I’m not sure I can define this yucky liquid SHIT

I’m very tired, but I can’t sleep.

It’s horrible. I need rest. I need this to end.

Pleease